By Ruth Gitau, Moringa Core Student
#Episode 1, Believe in Yourself
It was early Wednesday morning, only two weeks into the program when I dashed to the washroom, looked at my reflection in the mirror and asked myself, “what am I doing here? Have I made a mistake? Do I deserve to be here, do I really have what it takes?”
We highlight and celebrate peoples’ success without understanding the process they went through to reach their pinnacle of success. We turn a blind eye to the pain of it all.
Doubts, fears and feelings of unworthiness are some emotions we face at some point in life. Scratch that. We face these emotions when we are doing things outside our comfort zones. Mine came within the first two weeks of Moringa. You know that feeling all too well. One minute you’re high and the next you’re low.
Welcome to the life of an amateur programmer. You get fascinated at how things have been built. You get a high from creating your own stuff. You own your work and take pride in it. Yet there’s the other side of it all where you code and get so many errors while coding to the point you enter the button with bated breathe. Yet, the red errors still appear in your console. Fret not, that’s normal and it’s the one thing every new programmer should be told. It’s normal to get errors in your code. Rome wasn’t built in a day. Your coding skills won’t either. It takes time, practice and commitment. And it’ll get better. It always does.
Sometimes, it’ll get rough. Really rough. The kind of rough where you want to throw in the towel. But it’s in these moments that you have to remind yourself of a couple of things:
- why you love to code. This is your fuel.
- It’s okay to feel melancholic, acknowledge the emotions and continue on with your journey,
- stick with your dream, persevere and hang onto that thread and when you get to that point where you can’t hold on anymore,
- have people you can lean back on. People who fight for you and your dreams when you don’t want to.
Humans learn the most valuable lessons at the face of adversity. So take it all in stride. Trust the process. Believe in yourself. Believe you can do it.
And remember, there’s always a silver lining. A light at the end of the tunnel. Perhaps, hanging by the thread will lead you to be the next Mark Zuckerberg.